When I used to hear about people struggling with depression or suicidal thoughts, I had zero frame of reference for what they were actually feeling. I couldn’t grasp what was happening in their minds, their bodies, or what their brains were “telling” them. Honestly, I don’t think anyone truly can until they’ve walked that road themselves. And now, I can say, I’ve walked it.

Sure, most of us have faced moments of sadness, hopelessness, or even fleeting thoughts about death. But not everyone has experienced their own mind turning against them, whispering that it would be better to die, that it’s the only way to end the suffering. It’s terrifying. It’s disorienting. It’s a kind of darkness I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy. To feel as though your mind no longer belongs to you, to fear what it might convince you to do, is a place few understand.

I never thought I’d be one of those people. Maybe it was pride, or maybe just ignorance, but Yahweh allowed me to walk through it. And because of that, I’ve come out the other side with a heart that’s softer, fuller, and more compassionate toward those who dwell in the dark. There’s so much more room in me now, for empathy, for patience, and for grace.

May everything that happened to me be used for Yahweh's glory and fame.

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My Sick Brain – Part 1 | Afflicted 4 Messiah

“We accept that the body can fall ill, yet when the mind suffers, we call it weakness instead of sickness. But the One who formed flesh also formed thought... and He knows the pain of both.” Having a sick brain is a terrible thing. Being sick in any