When the Bible talks about "evil" (Hebrew ra/ra'ah), it's not talking about only the demonic or the "ultimate evil" that we often think of. It doesn't always mean "wicked", just like "good" doesn't always mean "righteous". It means really unpleasant, harmful, painful, etc. Evil in this sense is a relative concept. If you punch someone in the nose, you're doing them evil. If they didn't deserve it, then it's also wicked. If you stopped them from hurting someone else, you did something good and righteous, even while you did them evil.
One of the more subtle lies of modern Churchianity is that God never does evil (i.e. harm) to anyone, that only Satan does that. Nonsense. God kills, destroys, sends disease, and condemns. Those are all really unpleasant (and therefore "evil") to someone, and they're also perfectly good and righteous.
Now for some good news… Our Creator rarely uses those who were previously famous or well educated to accomplish His plan. There are many small fellowships of both Christians and Jew’s who gather to study the Bible and even better are living the way they are designed to live. Many have left the mainstream denominations (including modern Messianic) due to false teaching. There will always be a remnant, and for that reason we read Isaiah 65:17, “For behold, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind.” If all hope was lost there would be no need for a new earth, stay faithful, stand on the sacred word of our Creator and live the way we are designed to live so that we are able to serve Him with here and on the new earth.
I'm back! I have been away from this app for a year now. I had to get a new phone at some point and I just remembered this app existed honestly. A lot has happened in the last year and I'm grateful for the progress I have made in my personal life and my relationship with Yah. I look forward to using this app again and meeting new Torah believers!